April’s child

This April I ran a marathon. Next April, all going well, I’m going to have a baby. While that last hilly stretch of Connemara was murder, I can imagine that childbirth (good old natural style Dutch childbirth at that) will pip it at the pain post. But yeah, April is going a be a big big month for me next year.

So, being pregnant is pretty predictable and unpredictable at the same time. I kept running the first few weeks in and then that tidal wave of tiredness took hold and that was that. 10 weeks later, I emerged at the other side of trimester with a little more energy and a expanding waistline. Sport now counts as stairs and swimming. The steps at my local train stations are what 10km used to feel like, I’m out of breath at the top and a little proud every time I choose the steps over the escalator. I feel like proclaiming to those escalator users – “hah!!! see I’m pregnant and I took the stairs now hand me my medal and feel ashamed of yourselves” (p.s I take the escalator in the morning so this is my  Jekyll and Hyde behavior at it’s best)

I had the idea in my head that I could keep my activity levels up to pre-preg. levels,  but over the last few weeks I learned that being pregnant really does mean listening to your body, and I’ve done what I’ve felt I’m able to. I’d like to get to twice a week swimming but the frosty evenings are making the warmth of home harder to leave after a long day’s work. So the perennial battle between being active and lazy continues.

I also try to remind myself though that while I don’t feel like I’m “doing” much, my body is doing all sorts of amazing things to accommodate the little person growing inside. I’ve begun to understand that it takes 9 months to make a little person, it also takes 9 months to really comprehend that it is all REALLY happening.

With pregnancy putting running on hold for now, I hoped that wouldn’t mean that my blog wouldn’t suffer a similar fate. Almost every mother I’ve spoken to has advised me to enjoy this time, to enjoy this totally insane thing that is happening to me and thought such things can also be put down here for my own record and the pleasure of those interested enough to read. I’ll also be sharing my general ramblings on all things running as usual.

Standby for the next post.

We are on our way / we zijn onderweg

So there’s not been much blogging. I could say a lot about why but it’s not terribly interesting and mostly I’ve been just been very tired. Every rag you pick up off the shelf on running always says listen to your body, and in a way I’ve been shouted out of the room by my body.  It mostly just wants to sleep these days.

Running is going slowly and I’ve managed to be patient enough with myself to still just keep doing it- barely. It’s been surprisingly  hard not running at times though. I’m envious to see The Man return from very long runs on the weekend with a red, salty face and enjoy his hour long baths followed up with massive dinners. He’s gone on with running – aiming for a pb in Amsterdam Marathon. I find myself somewhere else.

I am doing things though. I gave my half marathon place to my boss today- both a relief and a gift of sorts. I’ve become a facilitator, organising our business teams for the 8km and Half Marathon. It’s actually quite nice to help make the day for people. We’re already wondering what will be the next big day out for us all as a team.

There is one race on the horizon for me though, the Dam tot Dam Loop, one of the most popular races in Holland and 16km is still manageable for me. I’ll be running with business team with the Man who has promised to take the gas off for the day and run for fun with me.

I’ve been reading my blogroll the past few days, guilt had kept me away for a while, and I realised that lots of others are also trying to get themselves out of slumps and doing their best to just put down one k after another. It was quite a comfort.  Our running lives are full of highs and lows and all we can do is to just keep going, one k at a time.  Ron Teunisse says it best for me. You’ll get the idea on Google Translate.

Praten

Soms word ik gek van ‘praten’. Overal wordt

gepraat, overlegd, gediscussieerd.

Een overdaad aan zogenaamde sociale contacten.

We moeten alles bespreken, begrijpen, uiten.

Wij lopers zijn bevoorrecht. Het maakt niet uit

hoe snel, hoe goed, hoe ver we gaan: we zijn

onderweg. We hebben allemaal ons eigen

verhaal, onze eigen fantasieën. We laten het

geklets en gezeur achter ons en gaan op ons

doel af. Geen uitleg, geen tegenspraak, geen

misverstand.

Ron Teunisse.

Here’s the log:

Sunday 26th June: 9.6km 01:00:35

Monday 27th June: 5km 00:34:12

Wed 29th June: 8.4km 00:50:42

Fri 1st July: 5km 00:29:37

Sun 3rd July: 8.1km 00:48:01

Tue 5th July: 5km 00:35:15

Mon 11th July: 5.4km 00:33:54 (In Amagasaki, Japan)

Wed 13th July:  9.6km 01:05:11 ( In Amagasaki, Japan)

Tue 19th July: 5km 00:33:21  (start of holidays)

Sat 23rd July: 5.2km 00:34:10 (In Switerzerland )

Mon 25th July: 11.7km hike in mountains 03:33:12 (In Switzerland)

Thurs 28th July: 17km cycle around lake 01:31:08 (In Switzerland)

Sun 31st July: 12km 01:10:57

Tue 2nd Aug: 5km 00:34:24

Sun 7th Aug: 8.4 00:44:39

Sat 20th Aug: 5km 00:35:23

Sun 21st Aug: 12km 01:05:46

Wed 24th Aug: 5km 00:34:34

and a few more that I need to properly log.

Travelling

I ran an 8km loop around Zaandam on Tuesday. Zaandam is an old industrial city, and still has a lot of processing and manufacturing businesses. I ran past lots of old industrial buildings, which no doubt will be converted into apartments one day, because many of these turn of the century buildings are beautiful and have a character that’s warm and familiar. They are just sleeping between uses right now. Their time will come.

New industry is not really the same. The buildings are places nobody wants to live next nevermind live in. One good example is the Zor oil refinery- I always pass it on my 8km loop. It’s not a super scale refinery but a small one, which has a road passing through the middle of it. Zor has a very menacing place.

The first thing that hits me is the smell. The smell reaches down your throat and seeps into your insides.  The roads around the refinery are stained black, like it’s trying to go back into the ground it was taken out of.  Sometimes, I  see workers enter and leave the building when I pass, all in protective clothing head to toe-  stopping the oil from seeping into them. They must never get the smell off though. Wives fall asleep next to that smell.

The oil refined at Zor is used in cosmetics, food and pharmaceuticals. I don’t look at butter, my make-up and a bunch of other things the same way thanks to that place.

Running takes me to Zor for no other reason other than the road that passes through it. It’s surprising what you find in these places that are not meant to be visited. They’re not beautiful or inspiring, but they are confronting, uncomfortable and thought-provoking.

The simple need to make kilometers, to clock the distance, takes me on journeys and once in a while, there is a discovery, a clearing in forest and I never know what the next one will look like or behind which bend it lies. All that and I still only ran 8km! It’s not about the total distance it’s about paying attention during the run and where it’s taking you. The longer it is of course the bigger the adventure.

It all calls me back to that statement by Jan Knippenberg:

“lopen is geen sport maar een manier van reizen”

(running is not a sport but a means of travelling).

Running round -up

Distance: 8.3km

Time: 46:34

Shoe: GEL-NOOSA TRI 5

Can we think beyond pink?

As the running boom of the noughties has spread across Europe,  it has a woman’s touch, more women only races, women majority races, more women’s shoes and custom apparel designed to match the needs of the sports woman who has it all.

But it’s in pink. It’s a Barbie Tsunami and I’m taking a moment to rant.

There are reasons for pink in running, the most obvious being that lots of “women’s runs” are breast cancer fundraisers and so that means pink ribbon- but the ribbon got out of control and you get, free pink t-shirts, strongly pink running clothes and shoes, pink websites and before you know you can’t call it “for women” unless it’s pink. Have a look:

Now, you’ll see that even some of my own work (AYAMi tank top product page) is implicated here so I’m as guilty as anyone, but why does women’s have to mean pink? We’ve grown up right? Perhaps we swallowed the whole pink thing when we were little girls, told to be a ” good  little girl”, our parents bought us presents from the pink aisle of the toystore (as we walked longingly past the distinctly boyish lego section) and now grow up buying pink tops and pink bras just in case we forget what we are.

Strangely enough the women’s run we’ve come to know in the media is nearly always “for ” something or someone else other than the women involved. It’s for sick people, moms, dads, kids, the elderly, the homeless and a worldfull of illnesses women doing things for other people -again. Sometimes I wonder if a run is something even a woman can have for herself? Do women need to define themselves constantly by what they do for others?

I’m a believer that if you don’t take care of yourself, you’ll soon not be much help to those around you, you’ll be washed up and worn out. Running is one of the best ways I’ve found  to stay strong, stay sane and create space in my life, I’m slow to hand it over and put it under a banner because it’s one of the things in life that I truly make my own.

Running world- races, brands, charities and designers let’s resist the urge and try to go beyond the pink next time, because running for women means a lot more than a single color can say.

Leave it to the ribbon to bring the pink.

And since I’m on it, let’s have another kind of Pink on here…

First day back

Today was my first day back running since the marathon on April 10th. I knew the break was going to be long one though. I had an operation on my thyroid, because something not-thyroid was growing on it, but now I’m out the other side and all is good. I’ve just got a scar that I’m already used to seeing every morning in the mirror. Ironically it’s a smiley scar, a grin almost, sitting there preaching his positive view on life. :)) (that’s a smiley with a thyroid operation scar).

So today I started with a 5km slow run around our usual Zaandam route. I felt heavy and a little tired, not surprising since I spent last week at an ASICS sales conference in Spain, and though there was plenty of sport ( I even made it home with gold medal) there was also a quantity of alcohol consumed in the company of my colleagues; they take their sport seriously but they know a thing or two about partying too.

So, wish me luck, this is a girl getting back on track.

 

Running Round Up:

GEL Noosa Tri 5

Distance: 5km

Time: 34 mins

 

 

My Connemara Marathon

Yes, it was ages ago. I’m coming out of what I call a post race dip of eating, drinking and sleeping. Perhaps dip is the wrong word, but it’s a rest up, but ar last here is my story about Connemara.

The race was great, if you haven’t heard we ran 04:11:20 a twenty minute improvement on our New York Marathon of 2009. My ASICS worked really well for us, and despite feeling ill the day before, and bit a struggle for me in the first half, we finished strong and happy.

After an hour bus journey (spent eating) to the start we stepped out into the wild west. We were among the first to arrive, accompanied by Germans and spattering of other timely nations across Europe and a few Irish. We sat on a mossy ditch and tried to keep warm and enjoyed the stunning view of  Twelve Bens rising up over Lake Inagh into the clouds.

There was no starting line yet, just an A3 sign on a stick saying “Start Connemara Marathon”. Yes, we are in Connemara. It’s low tech, low fuss and super friendly. The Germans went up and took turns having their photo with the sign- some excellent return on investment for race director “Ray” on that front.

The excitement built as morning drew on people went through those same rituals I witnessed in New York: tubs of vaseline, Deep Heat, watch calibration, lace tightening, the perpetual fiddling with shoes, bibs and all manner of things.  I was surprised by the European/American  mix of people- how had they even found out about this little race? Running adventurers, seeking out exotic places to do their next 42, and it was their “next”-  their legs had years of long runs.

In the midst of it all in a growing crowd Ray tried to avoid having any runners getting run over by a buses and ambulances while waiting for the off, “Lads, will ye keep in out of the road! There’s a bus trying to pass!” People would reluctantly move,  the growing line for the port-a-los would step away so as not to lose place and cheat death by a half inch.

We got ready to start  10am but before we set off, we had one of the best moments of the day. Before the marathon start, they wanted to let the Ultra marathon leaders to run past, so as not to be hindered by the slower marathoners. We all moved over a meter or so, and then they came, fast and smiling a small group of runners  went by and a huge cheer went up, whistles, clapping, people leaned and arched their necks to catch a glimpse of them go by.  I thought  to myself – you are heroes.  Fearless and smiling into that distance. I was stunned they were going so fast.

A few more came by,  some alone, more applause and support, it was incredible. I was touched by this moment which wasn’t orchestrated, no speakers, no cheer leaders.  What could have been a better start? I was so happy to see Ultras get this support, not the usual shaking of heads and calling them crazy but respecting them and cheering them on deservingly. How could I not be inspired to run my best, they were taking on 60 kilometers I could surely do 42!

We started and my sickness took it’s toll on me at the start, uphills and downhills put pressure on the lungs that were just getting by. The Man pushed me on, pushing the pace and not letting me make excuses. As the miles went by I settled down to running and enjoyed it more. Water stops came every 3 miles and indeed with mile markers I didn’t count the kilometers any more. I just ran. The crowd thinned out and somtimes it was like we were on one of long runs.

The course was so varied it kept every kilometer interestring, we never knew what was around the next bend, uphill or downhill, bridges, crossroads, pubs and people out clapping for us. The first turn was at Kylemore on the 6 mile mark and a  with a sharp right up a hill and then later we had the slope down along Killiary Harbor and on into Leenane to ease the legs. The turn up and out of Leenane was torture and at that moment runners we greeted by U2 in Macnas style street performance outfits at exactly the half way point.  The Edge gave me a high five. They were playing “Stuck in a moment”, which may not be the most helpful song for someone stuggling at the half way point, but took my mind off the hill and that was the whole point I guess.

For me, things got easier as time went on though I was happy to have brought extra gels and a few sachets of sugar (a trick from Ron Teunisse) to keep me going.  As we dragged up the hill after Leenane, the Devils Mother  rising up on the left we set out into the second half.

I have less sharp memories of that part of the race, it was easier to run though. At one point we came around a bend and the landscape opened out in front of us and then the wind brought a abelt of drizzle into our faces. I  dont remember panicking, just thinking “well, what did you expect in Ireland?!” As I’ve had before, the drizzle was almost nice, cooling us and putting a new perspective on things.

We chatted with people, we passed them they passed us. As the race progressed we started to play our usual game of  choosing a runner up ahead and focusing on catching them. Each one you catch is a victory and then it’s one to the next one. It’s a rewarding way to run through tiredness and your mind feels reassured. One thing with this game is that there is always one irritating person who keeps speeding up and passing you out again and you have to take them again, and that can be a no win.

As we ran on, we saw what they call the Hell of the West come into view, a very very long hill stretching up and out of view. We stuck to our game but after a while, we realised that everyone was walking. I hate walkers.  I will say it plainly but I was actually angry at people at this stage, they were marathon and half marathon RUNNERS and they were all walking, a few ultras manged to run on. We always see walking as the total last resort and I would rather stop than walk.

The Man had coached me through my tough first half and now he was finding it hard to put up with running through walkers. I tried to keep us going. This is when you need inward focus, where you have to disregard what everyone else is doing and just keep going. Blinkers on, we just ran. I thought of all the Ron Teunissse stories, the Knippenburg stories, the pure determination, the need for strength that it’s not in your legs- it’s in your head.  I told The Man – “Ron wouldn’t stop now-would he?” Stop now and you’re dead.

The Hell of the West levelled out after what felt like years, but I always imagined that the finish line was at the top of the hill. You can imagine my disappointment when I saw the road stretched out into the distance, the finish not even in sight. Well, we’d have to get home so the only thing to do was run.

The finish did appear and we crossed the line in 04:11:20, exactly the same time for both of us. We got our medals- a beautiful one- and then wandered into the usual post race pandemonium. I kid you not, Irish people were queuing for BURGERS after the race,- my stomach turned.  Some people just needed a burger I guess. We got a our baggage back and then ensud the nightmare bus ride back to Galway. A bus after a race is never a good idea and after 20min we both sat there with one empty baggage bag emptied and ready for what was ever left in our stomachs. Imagine? You run 42km and it’s the kilometers in the bus that get the better of you.

We made it Galway with our stomachs intact, thought with thoroughly green faces. Text messages and phone calls made, trying to explain how it went, the message never quite getting across. You realise that people can’t really understand unless they’ve been there and it was just us.

Ray and his team of volunteers put on the Connemara Marathon. The water stations were perfectly staffed by teenagers and children showing that young people can be incredibly supportive, responsible and uplifting. Everything happened on time and as it should.

There is no cut off time at this race, Ray waits himself to give the medals to the last runners over the line, they receive the same honor and congratulation as  those who win the race. For the days after, every plastic bottle cast aside on the day is picked up and recycled. This is a race that respects it’s runner’s and it’s route. It’s not the biggest race, not the most spectacular. You won’t spot any celebs or high profile running stars. It’s full of ordinary people who do extraordinary things with their lives. I still don’t even not who won.

Running this race was good for me physically but it goes  much further than that. Have a look at the photos on flickr and you’ll see that the memories will probably never fade. I know mine won’t.

 Visit the Connemara Marathon Flickr group: Bill is was the last finisher,  Ray is the race director

The expression of sport: Man en Fiets

Last night I saw my favorite Dutch TV star live in (all) the flesh.There was a gamble in going to see the show since he presents a great  TV show, and is an equally impressive sports journalist but what was he going to be in a theatre? A presenter? A storyteller? A comedian? A musican ? I worried that he would be less captivating in real life, small or un- impressive, missing that magical polish. Last night I went to see Wilfried de Jong at the Kleine Komedie in his show Man en Fiets (Man and bike). I walked in a fan, I left with a hero. What an inspiration.

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“the mist becoming rain”

We ran from Castricum station through the national park (sand dunes) to Heiloo on Saturday morning.  A very long, cold, wet run. It was lots of fun running somewhere new, first through a forest, meeting lots of people out riding. Once we were out of the shelter it was just runners. Mostly  hardy old dudes (yes mainly dudes) belting it out in the sand dunes. I felt young and very unfit as they bounded past us. One went past: “Goede morgen!!!” he bellowed and glanced up for a moment. He was gone by the time I caught a breath to reply….

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The course of true love never did run smooth

In honor Valentines day (yeah I know I’m late :) and in honour of running couples everywhere I shall recount the run I had with my husband on Saturday.

After substantial discussion beforehand we decided to run from Wormermeer back home to Zaandam, around 15km. The Man forget to bring the few notes he had written to make sure we made the right turns. We thought of it as we walked to our station, but oh we were confident, we didn’t need those notes, we’d be fine!

We got to Wormerweer, and it was much like any other small Dutch town. It looked tired in the drizzle, huge factory buildings from the late 18th and early 20th century sadly stared at their reflections in the Zaan. All testament to the exotic tastes of a colonial power: cocoa, rice, spices etc.

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And then it stopped hurting

The running I mean. With the training we have been doing lately, the pain, the out of breathness the “uh, I wanna die now” feeling which used to feature more regularly has pretty much disappeared.

We raced on Sunday in Apeldoorn 18.5km for the Apeldoorn Midwinter Marathon. We ran the first 10km as a training run, just jogging along really not doing much, enjoying the view of Dutch woodland in the winter, and at 10km, we decided to go for it and do a 8km at a fast pace.  We crossed the line in 01:43:22. Pretty darn quick for a race- that we didn’t really race.

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